In the limbo of feeling homesick abroad, yet sick upon returning home, I began to film. A visual diary, an unfiltered stream of consciousness, a deep dive into my blind spots. When one’s beloved birthplace carries out so much death, then where, and more so, how, to live? Filmed from 2023 to 2025 across Brussels, Israel, and the occupied Palestinian territories, the film traces a search for belonging and moral clarity from within a society shaped by fear.